General Update

Halloween, Samhain, the day I wait for all year. spent like 4 months telling my so-called friends we needed to do something. They all know I rarely do anything and that this was a big deal for me. Went out of my way to get a costume. Borrowed money from my dad, went into negative bank balance with 4 overdrafts ($140 wasted), and even canceled Aion, just so I'd have a costume and gas. Then when it finally got here all my so-called friends have better things to do than hang out with me. After months of planning I get told by one that she's too depressed and can't deal with people, another tells me he pretty much just tossed our plans out the window cause he got invited to a producer's party by a friend he knows I don't get along with, and another had already made plans to go with some other friend somewhere. Even my parents screwed me, my mom sceduling work today and my dad making other plans. So, I sit at home alone again in tears. I try to make excuses for them, to say I understand, that it's ok, but it's really not. I really feel like my friends aren't much of friends anymore to screw me over when they KNEW how important this was to me. I find myself once again very close to just severing all ties to everyone I know, since all they ever do is bring me grief and depression. Clearly I'm way down on the list of things that matter to any of them. Screw the world and everyone in it for being self-centered assholes. And to those online I promised Halloween pics to, sorry, it's not gonna happen again. I understand people have problems, and other things come up. But after 4 months of me talking about it and saying how we had to do something, for everyone to just ditch me at the last minute is ass. There's NO excuse for this, for people to not tell me ahead of time that they weren't planning to do anything with me instead of just letting me go on like something was actually gonna happen. /cry Fvckers, keep in mind, pay back is a bish and I'm a very vengeful person.